This is all I have to say today.

2 Corinthians 12:8-10 (New Living Translation)

8 Three different times I begged the Lord to take it away. 9 Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. 10 That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

I am so focused on my physical walk that I may be ignoring my spiritual walk. I have my own plans for when I get well but maybe God has something else in mind.

I will continue to work. I will continue to try and be strong but I need to find peace with where I am and what I have.

I'll be honest: I'm not doing as well as I did after the first treatment. I'm so consumed with how much everyone wants to see me get well and how much I want to prove those un-believing doctors wrong. That doesn't need to occupy my thoughts right now. I'm just going to do my  best to keep up with my therapy and maybe I'll get stronger or maybe I'll just stay the same. But I trust God is fully aware of my situation and has it under control. That is the only way I'll feel any peace right now.

Psalm 37
7 Be still in the presence of the Lord, and wait patiently for him to act.