2 Corinthians 12:8-10 (New Living Translation)
8 Three different times I begged the Lord to take it away. 9 Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. 10 That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
I am so focused on my physical walk that I may be ignoring my spiritual walk. I have my own plans for when I get well but maybe God has something else in mind.
I will continue to work. I will continue to try and be strong but I need to find peace with where I am and what I have.
I'll be honest: I'm not doing as well as I did after the first treatment. I'm so consumed with how much everyone wants to see me get well and how much I want to prove those un-believing doctors wrong. That doesn't need to occupy my thoughts right now. I'm just going to do my best to keep up with my therapy and maybe I'll get stronger or maybe I'll just stay the same. But I trust God is fully aware of my situation and has it under control. That is the only way I'll feel any peace right now.
Psalm 37
7 Be still in the presence of the Lord, and wait patiently for him to act.
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
My Solution
When I saw my neurologist a couple weeks ago and told him I was going back to Tijuana for a booster treatment, he asked me, “how many times will you go back?” When will I give up on this treatment? At the time, I didn’t know how to answer.
I’m sitting in the clinic now and it has finally clicked. I know how to answer now. I don’t give up on this treatment. This is the one that works. I have not seen improvement from any other medications thus far. My first stem cell treatment was the first time I have actually gotten better. I expect that I will improve even more after this round.
I spoke with one of the doctors in the clinic this morning and asked if there was a limit on booster treatments one should do. He said he had seen improvement in patients who do a booster treatment every 6 months for 5 years. There is no limit. I would even continue to improve if I did this protocol once per year.
Some naysayers say this treatment is like “pissing” in the ocean. But if you piss in it enough, the ocean will eventually turn yellow.
My neurologist and his partner have stated that it is highly possible that they could do this treatment in the states and that it would only cost $2000. (Versus the $30K charged by the brokers for this treatment in Mexico.) But they also said they probably wouldn't because he doesn't think it works. My tapping left foot will tell you it works better than anything else I've tried.
The following medications are available to me but have not helped my condition in the slightest:
Copaxone $3267 / month
Avonex $2941 / month
Rituxan $3000 / 500 mg
Rebif $2809 / month
Why can’t I count on a stem cell booster every 6 months for $2000? I would continually improve and it would, most certainly, keep me out of a wheelchair.
I am so damn sick of the approach so far that just turns my engine light off in the car without knowing what is making the light go on in the first place. We wouldn’t do that to our cars, why do we do this to our precious bodies?
I have been blessed by the care of a wonderful Mexican doctor who just wants to see me get well. Therefore, no, I am not paying $30K for round number 2. But I can’t continue to come to Tijuana every 6 months. I have children. My parents can’t be expected to fill in that often. I should have this option for treatment at home. This is my solution. This is my fight.
I’m sitting in the clinic now and it has finally clicked. I know how to answer now. I don’t give up on this treatment. This is the one that works. I have not seen improvement from any other medications thus far. My first stem cell treatment was the first time I have actually gotten better. I expect that I will improve even more after this round.
I spoke with one of the doctors in the clinic this morning and asked if there was a limit on booster treatments one should do. He said he had seen improvement in patients who do a booster treatment every 6 months for 5 years. There is no limit. I would even continue to improve if I did this protocol once per year.
Some naysayers say this treatment is like “pissing” in the ocean. But if you piss in it enough, the ocean will eventually turn yellow.
My neurologist and his partner have stated that it is highly possible that they could do this treatment in the states and that it would only cost $2000. (Versus the $30K charged by the brokers for this treatment in Mexico.) But they also said they probably wouldn't because he doesn't think it works. My tapping left foot will tell you it works better than anything else I've tried.
The following medications are available to me but have not helped my condition in the slightest:
Copaxone $3267 / month
Avonex $2941 / month
Rituxan $3000 / 500 mg
Rebif $2809 / month
Why can’t I count on a stem cell booster every 6 months for $2000? I would continually improve and it would, most certainly, keep me out of a wheelchair.
I am so damn sick of the approach so far that just turns my engine light off in the car without knowing what is making the light go on in the first place. We wouldn’t do that to our cars, why do we do this to our precious bodies?
I have been blessed by the care of a wonderful Mexican doctor who just wants to see me get well. Therefore, no, I am not paying $30K for round number 2. But I can’t continue to come to Tijuana every 6 months. I have children. My parents can’t be expected to fill in that often. I should have this option for treatment at home. This is my solution. This is my fight.
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Tijuana here we come!
Back for round two. We are leaving today, Sunday, October 17. The decompression treatments at the chiropractor have already made a difference. The numbness I was experiencing is significantly less.
This post is short. I'm not in the mood to type. I will, however, keep this blog updated while we are in TJ and how this second treatment helps me. I have great hope that it will do more than the last.
Viva la stemcells!
This post is short. I'm not in the mood to type. I will, however, keep this blog updated while we are in TJ and how this second treatment helps me. I have great hope that it will do more than the last.
Viva la stemcells!
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